[ And just like that, it’s easy again. Carver knows he’s drunk still but there’s nothing like an adrenaline rush to get him good and focused, and now there’s nothing he wants to do except be here and touch this man. He runs his fingers through Larus’s hair and then cups the back of his neck, pulling him close. Shivering a little at the feel of Larus’s teeth against his skin.
He likes it. He wants more. ]
Yeah?
[ Carver’s voice is rough. So is the way he goes for Larus’s pants, working them open and pressing his hand inside. ]
[ Are there words for this? He doubts it considering how close they are, how close they are to other people, but the darkness and the very thin walls of the tent give them a strange sort of privacy that Larus doesn't even acknowledge. All he does is breathe and arch into the heat of Carver's hand. He's starting to cool from whatever he'd drank, settling in a way that has him holding even tighter to Carver.
Larus turns his head, biting at Carver's mouth with that same sort of fervor. ]
Just you. [ He presses into him, their foreheads knocking together. ] Only you.
[ And to cover the emotion flooding his voice, Larus pushes his hands under Carver's clothes and drags his nails over skin with enough pressure to really feel it. ]
[ Yeah. Yeah, that feels fucking good. Carver arches at the sensation, grinding their foreheads together. He doesn't usually like people touching his scars - not because they hurt or anything, just because he likes it best when he's in charge, when he can direct things - but somehow it's different with Larus.
Always was, maybe. Carver hisses out a breath, working Larus roughly. Wanting to feel him fucking everywhere. To know what it feels like when they've both got a little less control. ]
[ Larus grits his teeth, muffling the softest sort of sound at the way Carver touches him. Maybe his nature has something to do with it, but the roughness feels good in a different way, hips jerking forward into the press of Carver's hand and digging his own nails a little deeper into skin.
And as always, there's nothing to say, his free hand easily tearing the button of Carver's pants in a desperate attempt to feel him. It's a little less focused though, fumbling and feeling frustrated that he can't touch him more than he already has. So, Larus uses both hands and rips at the fabric, sucking in a breath as he finally gets a hand on Carver's cock to stroke him. This is what he wants: just to feel him. ]
[ In a different moment, Carver thinks he'd laugh or maybe tease Larus a bit for ripping at his pants, for how desperately they're both grabbing at each other. Not here, though. There's nothing but this, the physicality of it. How much trust they've shared. Carver just rolls sideways, grabbing at Larus's shoulder to pull him on top. There isn't a lot of space here but that doesn't matter. That doesn't matter at all. ]
[ Even if they had more space than what the tent provided, Larus wouldn't care.
He drops on top of him and pauses long enough to go for Carver's mouth, the blunt edge of his teeth catching his bottom lip and sucking hard. The urge to really bite him is there, but he ignores it in favor of touching him, grinding against him for a little friction. This is good. Just being in this moment, feeling him and responding like they can't get it out of their system fast enough. He briefly thinks about getting Carver on his side and taking him that way, pressed close like he'd held him before. Yet, he doesn't move, kissing him harder and desperate to feel how they both unravel at the ends. ]
[ This feels right, how they're pressed together. How Larus leans down to kiss him hard enough it stings, how they can grind against each other. Rocking to chase the sensation, to let it drag. Carver barely hears himself gasping, his hands on Larus's hips and then running up his back. Wanting to touch him fucking everywhere. Carver was drunk and drifting earlier, content to let things slow down and just exist in the space with Larus next to him, touching him. And now -
He's awake now. He feels more alive than he has in a long time, even as his head swims from lack of air. Carver grins when he finally has to pull back, peering up at Larus because yeah. Fuck, yeah. There's nowhere else he wants to be. ]
You - you feel really fucking good, you know that?
[ Larus soaks up every moment of it, careful not to let himself drown in the way Carver's heart beats – he's done that, he thinks, it's slamming in his chest because of him – and every little sound that leaves him. They're too close to everyone else to really savor the privacy, but just like before, his attention is focused solely on the man beneath him, sliding his hand free to grip at Carver's hair.
Something about the way he speaks makes Larus want to devour him. ]
I want to make you feel, [ he tilts Carver's head back with a gentle pull, dragging his teeth along his throat before letting go, ] – so much more.
[ And he decides then that neither of them are undressed enough but especially Carver, dragging his pants and everything else down to his thighs and then urging him to roll over onto his stomach. ]
[ There's something about the way that Larus takes his hair that does it for Carver, really fucking does it, and he groans low in his throat. Tipping his head back to let him. It feels good. More than that, he doesn't even think about holding onto his knife or making sure he's got the upper hand. This is just happening. They decided, and so they're doing it.
He lets Larus push him onto his stomach, going easy - a glance back to watch him, some of Carver's hair falling over his eyes. He grins, lifting his chin. ]
[ There's trust in this. There's more than that in this, but Larus doesn't have the capacity to think about it right now, singularly focused as he uses a hand to push some of his own hair out of his face and searches for the lube that just so happens to be inside the tent. He'd thrown it out when it had appeared before, but it had just returned again the next time he'd stayed, so there hadn't been any point.
Now, it's useful. (Even if Larus is tempted to just spread him open and use his tongue, but maybe another time.)
Larus meets Carver's eyes and offers him the slightest smile, clearly intent on this and nothing else, and when he presses his fingers into him, he leans over him, hiking up his shirt to let his mouth find warm skin. His patience is strangely thin, but he doesn't want to hurt him either, sighing to himself as his teeth graze over Carver's back as he works him open enough to take him. ]
[ They've done this before, but it hits like new every goddamn time. And right now Carver wants to feel it, all the way down to the marrow. He bows his head and makes a low sound, rocking into it. Urging Larus on because why bother being coy about any of it at this point? They're here, and he can feel Larus's mouth dragging against the scars on his back. Sometimes it feels like his thoughts are going to splinter his skull apart, they're racing so much. When he can't focus or settle.
Not right now. There's nothing but this right now.
Carver glances back at Larus again, his hair falling over his eyes in a messy tangle. ]
[ He knows he'll never get used to this: how responsive Carver is, how vocal he can be. Larus enjoys it, adding fingers slowly despite the urge to just shove him down, but it's all blurring together, his patience edged too thin to be good for either of them. ]
I could, [ Larus says, statement over anything else. He's tempered his strength considerably being around humans. ] But I don't want to.
[ Which most certainly feels the very opposite as he fucks into him with his hand, hard and quick until Carver's body tells him he needs more than his fingers. They both need more, and he pulls out, gripping at a hip as he strokes himself a little. Prefunctory , minimal. He needs this part to be easy, dragging him closer into a better position. And it's almost too intense when he finally thrusts into him, on his knees behind Carver and pausing there with his eyes closed. Just surrounded by him, swallowed up by his body and his heartbeat and his breathing.
All he has to do is move, and he does, setting an almost brutal pace. ]
[ It's rough. It's fucking perfect and Carver clamps a hand over his out of sheer reflex. You cannot make noise in the dark, you cannot expose yourself to the enemy or they'll find you. They'll find you and they'll rain that shit down on everyone around you, everyone you love. It's the worst kind of sin. Unforgivable. And yet -
And yet he wants to. To let go for a second, just for a second, Larus's hands on his hips. Fucking him rough. Holding him steady for it. Carver fights the urge to bite down on his own goddamn hand to muffle the noise - instinct, reflex, all of it - and forces himself to lay his palms flat on the ground. To focus on that even as Larus fucks him hard enough to knock the air from his lungs. What would it feel like if Larus really made him scream? It's a dangerous thought.
Thrilling, though.
Carver shivers, bowing his head, and rocks back hard. He doesn't try to touch himself, not yet, he just wants to ride it. To see how far Larus will take him. ]
[ There's always something different about this every time it happens. Sometimes soft, sometimes... not so much. Larus can feel that thread of control pulling tighter each time they come together, the only real sounds in the dark of that tent the drag of skin against skin and Carver's breathing. He wants to hear him though, likes those moments when he says his name like a curse and a quiet plea all in one.
It doesn't even seem important that they're still mostly dressed either.
His focus is sharp as he slows the pace just enough to shift his hips, drawing Carver closer even as one of his hands smooths along the length of his spine to bear down at the middle of his back. If he gets the position right, he'll know. Maybe he'll beg Larus for more, to stop because it's too much. It's already too much, so that doesn't really matter the way it should. Larus just breathes and says Carver's name: Brandon on the tip of his tongue, a little throaty, a little soft.
Then, he thrusts into him hard. Harder. There's the obvious jerk forward as they slide until Larus grips at Carver's sides to hold him still, grounding them both while chasing the sensation of having Carver unravel in his hands. ]
[ The force of it knocks the air from his lungs, again, fucking relentless. Carver bows his head, groaning out a jumble of nonsense curses in three different languages. He does that sometimes, swinging wild but still cursing. Fighting in at least one way. He's so hard it hurts and Larus is fucking him like it's the end of the goddamn world, and there's no room for thought. Not for this. He just shudders and takes it, takes it, and -
Oh.
Fuck.
He doesn't scream, but he makes a strangled noise; a similar sort of sin. There's nothing but heat and pressure and friction, and oh, oh, goddamn it all. ]
[ That's what he wants, but it still doesn't feel like enough. Nothing ever is, steadying him with one hand as he strokes the other around his hip and between Carver's legs to fist his cock. His grip, like the way he fucks him, is almost merciless, and he leans over him as far as he can without losing the leverage or making it awkward to try pressing his mouth to his skin. But it isn't as close as he wants it to be, isn't anything like he wants it to be. ]
On your back, [ he hisses, the words as close to a growl as he'll ever come.
And there's no ceremony to the way Larus pulls out and rolls him over, holding him down with a hand against his chest so he can slide right back into him and continue the jarring pace he's set for them. He can sink down and kiss him now, not bothering to return the hand around him but instead fisting Carver's hair and jerking his head back to kiss him deep. Hard, even harder, and no matter how tight he holds onto him, he doesn't plan to stop until he feels him come. ]
[ Like before there's no hesitation. Carver just hisses out a breath and moves where Larus guides him and oh, oh, the world goes blank. There's nothing but how it feels to have this. Carver grabs him hard, digging his nails into Larus's back, and hooks a leg over his hip to deepen it even as Larus takes him by the hair hand and kisses him breathless.
The world spins. Nothing exists but this. Nothing at all.
He nearly sobs when he comes, jerking under Larus and then going boneless. Utterly thrown by the intensity of it. ]
[ They're pressed so close together, slick skin and the sting of nails, but Larus wants to be so deep inside him that it's that same feeling all the time. The way Carver tastes and the squeeze of his body around him when he finds his release—he wants to claim this man. It's a dangerous thought, fucking him through his orgasm and only having the sense to not come inside him with his own.
It punches hard but not nearly as hard as the way he seeks out Carver's mouth.
The kiss itself is soft, the grip in Carver's hair easing as he nudges against him just to feel the heat of his skin. He presses him flat to the ground and holds onto him, soaking up the moment without a need for words. ]
[ It's gentle, afterward. Larus eases him down and Carver just shivers, clinging to him. His heart's pounding like he's been in combat, but everything feels warm and easy, the tension drained out.
Silently, he cups a hand to the back of Larus's neck and just pulls him down. Holding him close as he shivers in the aftermath. Not from the cold, he thinks. He's not cold at all. But the intensity of it, maybe. Echoing through him. ]
[ He holds him through it, brushing his fingers through dark hair and turning his face towards him. There's just a moment where he breathes, listening to his heartbeat until it slowly begins to settle, and it's only after a handful of minutes have gone by that Larus thinks he should say something. Something important, something that will carry weight and have some meaning to the things they've done together. ]
I want it to stay like this. [ Their noses touch. Their foreheads. ] Just you and me.
[ Carver keeps his eyes closed, his breathing slowly evening out. He likes how it feels to have Larus on top of him, the weight of it, the way that Larus keeps touching his hair. Pressing their foreheads together. They're so close like this, they'd be sharing the same air if Larus still drew breath. But there's something here, he thinks. Something deeper. And that's dangerous, he knows. It'd worry him more if Larus hadn't just fucked his brains out.
Right now, he's drifting, and Larus feels like the only steady thing in the goddamn universe. ]
Wouldn't be so bad, [ he says, very softly, and squeezes the back of Larus's neck. ]
[ Maybe it's good that Carver can't think, though Larus wishes the same could be said for him. Very little ever takes him away from that, but he can continue to keep his focus there on him rather than elsewhere. It's probably why he says the things he does, making a quiet sound in the back of his throat when Carver squeezes his neck. They trust each other. And all he wants to do is go back to Duplicity, find that place they'd been talking about and stay there.
It's a deep feeling, and he swallows, tilting his head to press their lips together. ]
It's the only thing I can give you. [ Said just as quietly, his knuckles gently stroking over his cheek. ]
[ This is the part where he slowly untangles himself and leaves, doesn't look back until the next moment they come together. But it's the softness and sweetness of Carver's words and his arms around him that has Larus resting his cheek against his chest to listen to his heartbeat. Larus is warm and oddly content. It's all he could really ask for right now. ]
I think you're still drunk.
[ His voice is quiet, but he might also be teasing him just a little. ]
[ That gets a faint huff, Carver shifting so he can run his fingers through Larus's hair. He likes the texture, the softness of it. And he likes how Larus feels pressed against his chest, how they've become entwined. It won't last, things like this never do, but if it did -
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He likes it. He wants more. ]
Yeah?
[ Carver’s voice is rough. So is the way he goes for Larus’s pants, working them open and pressing his hand inside. ]
Tell me.
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Larus turns his head, biting at Carver's mouth with that same sort of fervor. ]
Just you. [ He presses into him, their foreheads knocking together. ] Only you.
[ And to cover the emotion flooding his voice, Larus pushes his hands under Carver's clothes and drags his nails over skin with enough pressure to really feel it. ]
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Always was, maybe. Carver hisses out a breath, working Larus roughly. Wanting to feel him fucking everywhere. To know what it feels like when they've both got a little less control. ]
Good.
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And as always, there's nothing to say, his free hand easily tearing the button of Carver's pants in a desperate attempt to feel him. It's a little less focused though, fumbling and feeling frustrated that he can't touch him more than he already has. So, Larus uses both hands and rips at the fabric, sucking in a breath as he finally gets a hand on Carver's cock to stroke him. This is what he wants: just to feel him. ]
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He drops on top of him and pauses long enough to go for Carver's mouth, the blunt edge of his teeth catching his bottom lip and sucking hard. The urge to really bite him is there, but he ignores it in favor of touching him, grinding against him for a little friction. This is good. Just being in this moment, feeling him and responding like they can't get it out of their system fast enough. He briefly thinks about getting Carver on his side and taking him that way, pressed close like he'd held him before. Yet, he doesn't move, kissing him harder and desperate to feel how they both unravel at the ends. ]
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He's awake now. He feels more alive than he has in a long time, even as his head swims from lack of air. Carver grins when he finally has to pull back, peering up at Larus because yeah. Fuck, yeah. There's nowhere else he wants to be. ]
You - you feel really fucking good, you know that?
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Something about the way he speaks makes Larus want to devour him. ]
I want to make you feel, [ he tilts Carver's head back with a gentle pull, dragging his teeth along his throat before letting go, ] – so much more.
[ And he decides then that neither of them are undressed enough but especially Carver, dragging his pants and everything else down to his thighs and then urging him to roll over onto his stomach. ]
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He lets Larus push him onto his stomach, going easy - a glance back to watch him, some of Carver's hair falling over his eyes. He grins, lifting his chin. ]
Then do it.
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Now, it's useful. (Even if Larus is tempted to just spread him open and use his tongue, but maybe another time.)
Larus meets Carver's eyes and offers him the slightest smile, clearly intent on this and nothing else, and when he presses his fingers into him, he leans over him, hiking up his shirt to let his mouth find warm skin. His patience is strangely thin, but he doesn't want to hurt him either, sighing to himself as his teeth graze over Carver's back as he works him open enough to take him. ]
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[ They've done this before, but it hits like new every goddamn time. And right now Carver wants to feel it, all the way down to the marrow. He bows his head and makes a low sound, rocking into it. Urging Larus on because why bother being coy about any of it at this point? They're here, and he can feel Larus's mouth dragging against the scars on his back. Sometimes it feels like his thoughts are going to splinter his skull apart, they're racing so much. When he can't focus or settle.
Not right now. There's nothing but this right now.
Carver glances back at Larus again, his hair falling over his eyes in a messy tangle. ]
C'mon. You're not gonna hurt me.
[ They've done this before, too. ]
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I could, [ Larus says, statement over anything else. He's tempered his strength considerably being around humans. ] But I don't want to.
[ Which most certainly feels the very opposite as he fucks into him with his hand, hard and quick until Carver's body tells him he needs more than his fingers. They both need more, and he pulls out, gripping at a hip as he strokes himself a little. Prefunctory , minimal. He needs this part to be easy, dragging him closer into a better position. And it's almost too intense when he finally thrusts into him, on his knees behind Carver and pausing there with his eyes closed. Just surrounded by him, swallowed up by his body and his heartbeat and his breathing.
All he has to do is move, and he does, setting an almost brutal pace. ]
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And yet he wants to. To let go for a second, just for a second, Larus's hands on his hips. Fucking him rough. Holding him steady for it. Carver fights the urge to bite down on his own goddamn hand to muffle the noise - instinct, reflex, all of it - and forces himself to lay his palms flat on the ground. To focus on that even as Larus fucks him hard enough to knock the air from his lungs. What would it feel like if Larus really made him scream? It's a dangerous thought.
Thrilling, though.
Carver shivers, bowing his head, and rocks back hard. He doesn't try to touch himself, not yet, he just wants to ride it. To see how far Larus will take him. ]
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It doesn't even seem important that they're still mostly dressed either.
His focus is sharp as he slows the pace just enough to shift his hips, drawing Carver closer even as one of his hands smooths along the length of his spine to bear down at the middle of his back. If he gets the position right, he'll know. Maybe he'll beg Larus for more, to stop because it's too much. It's already too much, so that doesn't really matter the way it should. Larus just breathes and says Carver's name: Brandon on the tip of his tongue, a little throaty, a little soft.
Then, he thrusts into him hard. Harder. There's the obvious jerk forward as they slide until Larus grips at Carver's sides to hold him still, grounding them both while chasing the sensation of having Carver unravel in his hands. ]
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Oh.
Fuck.
He doesn't scream, but he makes a strangled noise; a similar sort of sin. There's nothing but heat and pressure and friction, and oh, oh, goddamn it all. ]
F - fuck, Larus...
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On your back, [ he hisses, the words as close to a growl as he'll ever come.
And there's no ceremony to the way Larus pulls out and rolls him over, holding him down with a hand against his chest so he can slide right back into him and continue the jarring pace he's set for them. He can sink down and kiss him now, not bothering to return the hand around him but instead fisting Carver's hair and jerking his head back to kiss him deep. Hard, even harder, and no matter how tight he holds onto him, he doesn't plan to stop until he feels him come. ]
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The world spins. Nothing exists but this. Nothing at all.
He nearly sobs when he comes, jerking under Larus and then going boneless. Utterly thrown by the intensity of it. ]
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It punches hard but not nearly as hard as the way he seeks out Carver's mouth.
The kiss itself is soft, the grip in Carver's hair easing as he nudges against him just to feel the heat of his skin. He presses him flat to the ground and holds onto him, soaking up the moment without a need for words. ]
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Silently, he cups a hand to the back of Larus's neck and just pulls him down. Holding him close as he shivers in the aftermath. Not from the cold, he thinks. He's not cold at all. But the intensity of it, maybe. Echoing through him. ]
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I want it to stay like this. [ Their noses touch. Their foreheads. ] Just you and me.
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Right now, he's drifting, and Larus feels like the only steady thing in the goddamn universe. ]
Wouldn't be so bad, [ he says, very softly, and squeezes the back of Larus's neck. ]
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It's a deep feeling, and he swallows, tilting his head to press their lips together. ]
It's the only thing I can give you. [ Said just as quietly, his knuckles gently stroking over his cheek. ]
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It's good, like this.
[ He keeps his eyes closed, holding Larus close to him. ]
It's good, with you.
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I think you're still drunk.
[ His voice is quiet, but he might also be teasing him just a little. ]
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If it did, Carver thinks that'd be all right. ]
Mhph. We did shots.
[ He pokes Larus's arm. ]
If I'm drunk, you are too.
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