[ His desperation is a sour taste in his mouth. The name across the screen offers him not an ounce of hope, but there's no one else he can think to turn to. ]
that you have so little faith in him surprises me.
i never said i was going to let him do it alone. he would ask you because you're the only one he trusts who is still part of that place, but i think he's afraid. i also told him you were too much of a risk.
[ If Jericho wants honesty, he is really the last person to ask. ]
the reality of it is you think he's going to fail. there is no faith in that.
because you hurt him. he'll believe anything you tell him, and if you can't be with him, it's better that you're not involved. [ There's a delay before he replies to his last question. ]
[ Knowing that it's the truth is the thing that floods him with guilt. Egil needed someone, and Larus was there, while Jericho was the reason he needed help in the first place. He doesn't know how to stop struggling with this. ]
do you expect me to just watch him die? tell me what i'm supposed to do.
that was my plan too. he might be alive but i failed. miserably. [ This isn't something he'd normally say, but nothing feels normal anymore, least of all him. ]
i can't stay here. i'm a danger to him but he won't let me go.
[ More specifically, he won't. Jericho wasn't there to see the way Egil climbed his way out of what he'd left behind, and he isn't going to belittle that by listening to this. ]
that's something you should talk to him about. he won't let you leave.
is that what this is really about? you think you're going to hurt him again, so you would rather ignore everything he's trying to do than stay with him?
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we need to talk.
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what do we need to talk about?
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you need to talk egil out of this crusade of his. he's going to die.
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egil isn't going to listen to me. this is what he wants to do.
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so you would just sit back and watch him kill himself? it doesn't matter that he wants to do it. he doesn't know what he's going up against.
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i never said i was going to let him do it alone. he would ask you because you're the only one he trusts who is still part of that place, but i think he's afraid. i also told him you were too much of a risk.
[ If Jericho wants honesty, he is really the last person to ask. ]
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how am i too much of a risk? i'm the only one telling him the truth right now.
you're helping him with this?
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because you hurt him. he'll believe anything you tell him, and if you can't be with him, it's better that you're not involved. [ There's a delay before he replies to his last question. ]
someone has to.
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[ He swallows, his jaw tightening. ] he won't believe me about this. and he's the one who dragged me back here. i told him to send me back.
i take it you finally decided to show your face.
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i wasn't going to let him die in that hospital. [ Jericho can take that as he wants because he isn't going to clarify. ]
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do you expect me to just watch him die? tell me what i'm supposed to do.
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but i won't let him die. that isn't the plan.
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i can't stay here. i'm a danger to him but he won't let me go.
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is that what you're asking? i can't help you.
[ More specifically, he won't. Jericho wasn't there to see the way Egil climbed his way out of what he'd left behind, and he isn't going to belittle that by listening to this. ]
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you can't possibly think it's good for me to be here. not after what happened.
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but if you're going to do nothing, i don't see why it matters where you are.
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he needs a guard. a real one. the ones here aren't enough.
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you're the only one here who could face me should something happen.
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is that what this is really about? you think you're going to hurt him again, so you would rather ignore everything he's trying to do than stay with him?
i didn't think you were a coward either.
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i don't know how many ways i need to say i nearly killed him. it's not cowardice to want to keep him safe, and besides, you're not one to talk.
i'll kill him, or the factory will. i'l do whatever it takes to make sure neither one happens.
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