[ Heās always known this was going to happen, he just never knew how bad it would be.
Some would say that things have gotten worse between him and Nik, but it truly doesnāt feel that much different. Not in Nikās behavior. The difference is that Casimirās thoughts are often flooded with someone else now, and Nik has realized that. So they argue more. Their arguments escalate, usually in the dead of night. Their yelling matches turn into physical altercations, and Casimir doesnāt like hurting him, but it becomes more and more necessary to defend himself.
More and more, he shows up on Larusā doorstep aching, bruised, sometimes bloody. Larus never turns him away, and he grows used to sleeping on his couch, his bed, wherever, depending on his mood. Sometimes heās angry. Sometimes heās manically happy to see him. Sometimes heās incredibly drunk. And sometimes, heās seeking the comfort of his arms.
He always tries to leave by sunrise. But there have been a few too many lazy mornings together, stuck in a strange, hazy bubble where they pretend the world doesnāt exist outside of this house. In this bubble, he doesnāt care what Nik thinks. Let him feel the loss of his presence, and maybe heāll realize how bad things are between them. Larus gets agitated sometimes, rightfully so at the entire situation, but he never physically lashes out. Itās justā¦ so different with him. Itās almost like how Nik had been at the start.
He makes the mistake of saying this to Nik one night, after sex and now in the middle of a passionate argument, so loud that heās sure Larus can hear them if heās home, and things devolve entirely too quickly for Casimir to keep up. Nik begins storming through the house, railing against Casimir, against Larus, against everything thatās ever bothered him in the last twenty-four hours, and once Casimir realizes heās heading outside, across the fence, straight toward Larusā house, he has to put a stop to it.
Nik stops him in the living room, breaking a lamp dangerously close to Casimirās head, the glass leaving a shallow gash across his cheek. Then Nik does something heās never done before. He drags him across the room, and throws him in the closet, the force making him hit the wall with a thud, falling against the sharp corners of stacked boxes -- Christmas decorations, expensive kitchenware gifts neither of them had particularly liked, board games, shoes. Before he can right himself, Nik slams the door shut and twists the lock.
Heās well on his way to making himself hoarse, banging on the heavy door, when he hears the front door slam, and suddenly, the house is empty. Panic grips him, and he reaches for his phone, fingers flying over the screen. ]
nikās heading your way. heās drunk and he wants to kill you.
At first, Larus hadn't wanted to deal with Casimir's fluctuating moods, the soft promises of things that would never be real or the fleeting pressure of his lips when they entertained the notion of kissing. He's only so strong as to resist the temptation, half-dating a man who's in a committed relationship with an abusive idiot he could kill and stage the murder as an accident. The desire to have Casimir in his bed or filling that lone silence every moment had become too much each time he caught glimpses of them together, and he needed to get out. He needed to go somewhere far away from this town with its desperate housewives and gossip mill, contacting a few "friends" to arrange some work that would take him out of the country.
Of course, the job had been a disaster. He'd botched the intel, which lead to a difficult death, and he's now got a broken rib and a throbbing knife wound in his hip—neither luckily nonlethal. But they both hurt, and he isn't in a good mood, driving back from the airport without really thinking about what he might be coming home to. Casimir in his pool, drinking his wine. Casimir curled up on his sofa or in his bed. Casimir, Casimir, Casimir. It's so frustrating not to have any peace of mind, and he sits in his car in his driveway for half an hour too long when he finally gets home, forehead resting against the steering wheel and body aching. He's going to have to end this, or he's never going to be free; there's just no other way around it. Reaching for his phone feels like a blessing and a curse when he notices Casimir's name pop up across the screen.
But he only gets a second to glance at the message before the car door is being ripped open and someone is trying to drag him out of the vehicle by his hair.
Larus curses, a deep breath causing pain to flare through his chest, and his hand shakes as he tries to dislodge those fingers, maneuvering in a way that he's outside without more discomfort than he's already in. Yet, there's no real way to fight someone who is both drunk and wanting to actually do him harm, grappling with Nik until he's got an arm locked around his throat. The bastard tries to use his body weight to slam him against the car door, and even though the sharp burn from the knife wound lances through him, he doesn't let go. He'd been trained for this, knew his limits, and he squeezes at him, writhing and all, until he feels the signs of unconsciousness start to take hold, carefully letting him slip to the ground before stepping over him.
He sweating as he walks up the front walk to Casimir's house, holding his side and ignoring the fact fresh blood is beginning to seep into his pants. There's a smear of it left on the door when he opens it, trying not to breathe but panting at the same time. He's tired and irrational, and when he finally figures out that Casimir is in the closet, he undoes the lock to throw it open and look at him. This is not what he wanted to deal with.
It takes him several long seconds to get his mouth to work. ]
I'm not doing this anymore. [ And though it's supposed to make him feel better, he just feels worse, grimacing as he turns to limp away from him. ]
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Some would say that things have gotten worse between him and Nik, but it truly doesnāt feel that much different. Not in Nikās behavior. The difference is that Casimirās thoughts are often flooded with someone else now, and Nik has realized that. So they argue more. Their arguments escalate, usually in the dead of night. Their yelling matches turn into physical altercations, and Casimir doesnāt like hurting him, but it becomes more and more necessary to defend himself.
More and more, he shows up on Larusā doorstep aching, bruised, sometimes bloody. Larus never turns him away, and he grows used to sleeping on his couch, his bed, wherever, depending on his mood. Sometimes heās angry. Sometimes heās manically happy to see him. Sometimes heās incredibly drunk. And sometimes, heās seeking the comfort of his arms.
He always tries to leave by sunrise. But there have been a few too many lazy mornings together, stuck in a strange, hazy bubble where they pretend the world doesnāt exist outside of this house. In this bubble, he doesnāt care what Nik thinks. Let him feel the loss of his presence, and maybe heāll realize how bad things are between them. Larus gets agitated sometimes, rightfully so at the entire situation, but he never physically lashes out. Itās justā¦ so different with him. Itās almost like how Nik had been at the start.
He makes the mistake of saying this to Nik one night, after sex and now in the middle of a passionate argument, so loud that heās sure Larus can hear them if heās home, and things devolve entirely too quickly for Casimir to keep up. Nik begins storming through the house, railing against Casimir, against Larus, against everything thatās ever bothered him in the last twenty-four hours, and once Casimir realizes heās heading outside, across the fence, straight toward Larusā house, he has to put a stop to it.
Nik stops him in the living room, breaking a lamp dangerously close to Casimirās head, the glass leaving a shallow gash across his cheek. Then Nik does something heās never done before. He drags him across the room, and throws him in the closet, the force making him hit the wall with a thud, falling against the sharp corners of stacked boxes -- Christmas decorations, expensive kitchenware gifts neither of them had particularly liked, board games, shoes. Before he can right himself, Nik slams the door shut and twists the lock.
Heās well on his way to making himself hoarse, banging on the heavy door, when he hears the front door slam, and suddenly, the house is empty. Panic grips him, and he reaches for his phone, fingers flying over the screen. ]
nikās heading your way. heās drunk and he wants to kill you.
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At first, Larus hadn't wanted to deal with Casimir's fluctuating moods, the soft promises of things that would never be real or the fleeting pressure of his lips when they entertained the notion of kissing. He's only so strong as to resist the temptation, half-dating a man who's in a committed relationship with an abusive idiot he could kill and stage the murder as an accident. The desire to have Casimir in his bed or filling that lone silence every moment had become too much each time he caught glimpses of them together, and he needed to get out. He needed to go somewhere far away from this town with its desperate housewives and gossip mill, contacting a few "friends" to arrange some work that would take him out of the country.
Of course, the job had been a disaster. He'd botched the intel, which lead to a difficult death, and he's now got a broken rib and a throbbing knife wound in his hip—neither luckily nonlethal. But they both hurt, and he isn't in a good mood, driving back from the airport without really thinking about what he might be coming home to. Casimir in his pool, drinking his wine. Casimir curled up on his sofa or in his bed. Casimir, Casimir, Casimir. It's so frustrating not to have any peace of mind, and he sits in his car in his driveway for half an hour too long when he finally gets home, forehead resting against the steering wheel and body aching. He's going to have to end this, or he's never going to be free; there's just no other way around it. Reaching for his phone feels like a blessing and a curse when he notices Casimir's name pop up across the screen.
But he only gets a second to glance at the message before the car door is being ripped open and someone is trying to drag him out of the vehicle by his hair.
Larus curses, a deep breath causing pain to flare through his chest, and his hand shakes as he tries to dislodge those fingers, maneuvering in a way that he's outside without more discomfort than he's already in. Yet, there's no real way to fight someone who is both drunk and wanting to actually do him harm, grappling with Nik until he's got an arm locked around his throat. The bastard tries to use his body weight to slam him against the car door, and even though the sharp burn from the knife wound lances through him, he doesn't let go. He'd been trained for this, knew his limits, and he squeezes at him, writhing and all, until he feels the signs of unconsciousness start to take hold, carefully letting him slip to the ground before stepping over him.
He sweating as he walks up the front walk to Casimir's house, holding his side and ignoring the fact fresh blood is beginning to seep into his pants. There's a smear of it left on the door when he opens it, trying not to breathe but panting at the same time. He's tired and irrational, and when he finally figures out that Casimir is in the closet, he undoes the lock to throw it open and look at him. This is not what he wanted to deal with.
It takes him several long seconds to get his mouth to work. ]
I'm not doing this anymore. [ And though it's supposed to make him feel better, he just feels worse, grimacing as he turns to limp away from him. ]